February 26, 2015
Dear Brothers and Sisters in Christ,
Some of us are in full swing with God on our Lenten journey. In Lent our total focus in on Jesus and on what God wants for us that we might have a deeper, more trusting relationship with God and with each other.
I am always amazed when I hear God’s voice suggesting that I make a turn in my life. My initial response when God said through others, “Go to seminary”, was “Are You Nuts? Who Me?” Quickly followed by a whole litany of my lack of abilities, my age, my having an earthly (not exactly pure - much less holy) life before seminary. As you know, I completed seminary with honors, thanks to God. But this is old news that you learned about 7 years ago.
More recently I heard God’s urging for yet another turn in my life. Never think you are beyond God’s calling you to change! A friend spoke to me about a huge concern of hers. She was not going to be able to care for her granddaughter for a while, could I, would I be the child’s guardian until she is back on her feet. Again the simple questions; who, me, are you crazy? You do realize that I am rapidly approaching 65 years old and have never cared intimately for a child? [At least I am consistent with discomfort with change.] Needless to say I prayed long and hard. I really cherish my singleness, my independence, and my residential solitude.
But God has a way of working on our hearts, my heart. As I looked at this precious 6 year-old, my heart hurt at the thought of her possibly going into foster care. The idea of foster care became so abhorrent to me that what I cherished became less and less important. So precious Essence is now my charge to love, teach, guide, and cry with. Yes, we both cried Sunday morning in the church parking lot when she got her finger caught in the door as she slammed it close.
Am I doing everything right? No. But what I am doing is with love and, in time, I know God will make everything right.
Has God been speaking to you – through others? Have you been listening? Have you been responding? Lent is time of focusing on Jesus that we may be changed forever. I wish you a time of unbridled joy has you are challenged to be changed.